April 4
Paying a caloric bill is a bigger price than being fat. No matter how much I hate the extra weight, denying myself some other food is a harder price to pay than wearing it. It was only after I started demanding of myself that I be accountable to reconcile my calories that I really worked at not doing the damage in the first place. And I am not talking about having more willpower. All the self-recrimination and misery in the world never kept willpower around when I needed it, bafflingly enough. I am talking about going more out of my way to become aware of the sequence of events that over and over again led to my calorie disasters.




