Morning Musings

I love my quiet time in the morning.

Seems I wake up, more often than not with the FID’s.  That’s:  Fear Of Impending Doom.  I don’t know why I seem to “come to” most days in this state, but, thank God (or Good Orderly Direction, or Source, or Universal Intelligence, or whatever you want to call it), I do know what to do about it. Continue reading “Morning Musings” »


February 16, 2011

“Screw it” is the end of a whole chain of thoughts and actions.  I just about never say “screw it” from a position of strength, on a day when I have been totally on track and when my environment has […]

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February 15, 2011

The foot bone is connected to the ankle bone.  Chances are I keep screwing myself up in the same ways over and over again – studies show that most people do.  I may only have to change a few  critical […]

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February 14, 2011

If every success is mine, then so must be every derailment.   There is really only one common denominator in every incident…me.  I would help myself out considerably if I would just have the courage to look at exactly how I […]

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February 13, 2011

Amazing how the most appalling desperation can fade from memory at the sight of a zeppoli.  Seemingly out of the blue (but not really), I absolutely don’t care about my health or my weight – at least for that moment […]

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February 12, 2011

Every surrender feels real.  I start out every January/Monday/Birthday, etc  with these incredibly sincere intentions, and sooner or later end up totally demoralized and fatter.  What happens to all that soul searing sincerity?  I must do something to de-motivate myself, […]

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February 11, 2011

Making someone else the “heavy” only works temporarily.  Reporting to some other “authority” ultimately fails for me because as soon as I am not doing what they and I both agree I am supposed to be doing (no matter how […]

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